By Jennifer S. Whitcombe-Jones

Creation

January 8, 2009

This word, a shell, a vessel;

Like me, its essence is carried within its structure.

The mass of its connotations encumbers the levity of its core.

Defining defies, alters,

How? What? Why?

Words cannot explain;

They belittle, condescend, patronize, categorize, murder.

The weight of stagnation, the decay of inertia;

Smother and suffocate, enveloping opaque and solid.

Creative embers require oxygen to combust, to flame, to burn.

Incineration, chemical reaction that changes dead wood;

Releasing the soul through the licking tongues of azure, ochre and amber.

Rising triumphant loosed from the prison; no words to bind or constrict;

Only heady freedom on the up drafts and currents spiraling and ascending

To the heavens.  Relinquishing the material for the ephemeral;

Giving over the separate for the sacred, retrieving the source.

Open and empty, ready to be filled again.

This is creation!

I have wasted much time trying to understand why people cling so tenaciously to antiquated beliefs that serve no purpose other than to keep them enslaved and perpetuate the seperateness and fragmentation that blocks the human species from attaining the Great Integrity.  Why would a slave CHOOSE to remain in captivity?  This caused me a great deal of suffering.  The reading I have been doing recently has allowed me to become aware of a few things.
1. No one can travel my path, it is mine alone.
2. I cannot awaken another being that is not ready, I can only be the space in which they allow themselves to become conscious.
3." That which we resist, persists; that which we fight, we strengthen." Tolle
4. My suffering comes directly from my pain-body built up throughout my childhood regarding the Christian religion and the acceptance of my father.
5. Organized religions represent large cultural pain-bodies that will not meet their demise quietly or quickly, it took more than 2 milenium to create, it will take 5 times that to die!
6. The anxiety I feel about those I love being enslaved (voluntarily or involuntarily) is NOT ME.  It is a conditioned response that I must recognize and be aware of, so it does not take away my consciousness.
7. The anger and resentment I feel about organized religion does not come from the core ideologies, but is a result of those fanatical elements who if given their way would take away my right to follow my own path, or worse take away my daughters' right to follow their own paths.

These are my mantras and this is my present spiritual exercise.